Searching for structure

I feel right no I am suppose to date...I am suppose to attend a singles ward...I am suppose to meet a new boy every week... I am suppose to make myself available for all those eager boys to date...I am suppose to be meeting new people all the time...I am suppose to attend institute...I am suppose to enjoy large ward summer trips...I am suppose to enjoy several ward commitments throughout the week to keep me social. I am suppose to be connected to everyone and everything all the time (smart phone).

I just want to be me. I want to go to church and feel the Spirit. I just want to fulfill a calling.

So I ask myself will I be happier in a family ward or will I be avoiding all those things I am suppose to do.

I Have A Dream!

My roommate had a plan and goals so I had to say something...

I said I am going to open a hospital.

She helped me fill in the rest (she has me figured out)...

It will be a small or large pediatric hospital for hopefully well children. At first we might treat colic and diaper rash then slowly advance to more mature problems such as croup, ear infections, and sniffles to name a few. We will eventually open and ER for scrapes and bruises. The myriad of things we treat will grow much like a child.

The hospital will be run day and night by one well trained and skilled nurse. I feel consistency in these well children's life will be important. Yes you may be wondering but she will also run the cafeteria. The children must be fed.

Currently, there are no children to be admitted to this hospital but you could say they are a twinkle in this nurses eye. She will find them. They might just fall from heaven.

Beautiful capable well trained nurse seeking handsome side kick to assist in much of the same responsibilities. Most likely on an early evening, night and early morning shift, and most if not all weekends. Must be trained in dish washing and other household, I mean hospital, responsibilities. The rest of their time will be spend in fundraising for the hospital. Must love children.

Spread the word people this hospital needs to get up and functioning...there are lives to save.

Memorable May!

My little sister is in Denver working as a travel nurse. I am so glad she is having a great experience but I also wish she was back here in Salt Lake with me.

Last weekend I got to go visit her. I was afraid I would not make it because I got sick the day before I was to leave. It was a Wednesday so I was needed at work. I struggled through that day. On Thursday I stayed home from work and stayed in bed all day. I got up at three and decided I was going to brave the trip. I flew to Phoenix first which turned out to be quite a treat. My parents met me at the airport and I got to hang out with them for two hours. I was not the most exciting person but I was very excited that I got to spend time with them. Next I got to fly to Denver with my older sister and little brother. That was a lot of fun and totally worth the longer flight. I had to laugh my brother has only flown once and that was before 9/11. We did not do a good job instructing him on security. Oops.

We had a lot of fun in Denver one day we visited the town of Golden. My brothers middle name is Golden so we had fun with that. I slept after that.

The next day we went to Elitch Gardens. It is a tiny little theme park in Denver. Though it is tiny the rides are awesome. It was a fun day we reminisced about our time at Paramounts Great America in San Jose. Fun times fun times.

Later that night we went to take pictures of the Denver skyline. It was so much fun. My brother took some awesome pictures. This was a fun one we took. We finally got my sister to stand still long enough to take it. From this parking garage we could here the U2 concert. Which only got me excited for...

The Salt Lake City U2 Concert!!


My friends talked me into getting U2 tickets almost 18 months ago when they were coming. The show was canceled but we held out and kept our tickets. Let me tell you I am so glad we did because the show was simply amazing!! I know who U2 is and I know some of their music but I was really surprised that I know all of their music. They put on a great show.

Rock On!

pic found here

Nothing screams 4 day work week better than underpants on your head.

Swing dancing!!

I took a six week class where I learned 5 different ballroom dances ( I missed one week, but would not trade the fun I had). The very last week we did swing and I loved it. This is no surprise because I was inspired to take this class because in my head I did a mean Lindy Hop.

So for the next six weeks I will be taking a swing class where we will learn six different types of swing. Sorry Monica and Ken only half a class will be dedicated to country swing (so we don't get bored of the music...instructors words not mine). I am super excited about this class. Wish me luck!

Must Resist The Urge To Lead.

I always thought I was a follower in life. I thought I liked just going with the flow... I think I might be wrong... These were some of my realizations in my dance class today.

Growing up my dad would dance with us and teach us to follow. I loved it and I was excited to be able to read a partner when dancing. However, many times at dances or should I say all the time at dances there are not enough guys. As a result I have become a very good lead. Ask Monica she will confirm it! I have my dad to thank for that too!

I now am having to work through this in my social ballroom class. In addition to my conflicting rolls growing up. I also think I am a strong willed individual. I also like things done right and if people are not catching on as fast as me I take control. This is very frustrating to me. I don't want to be in control but apparently I am more comfortable there. I think this is why I was inspired to take dance lessons. Teach me to follow and maybe be a little more submissive.

Good news though when I dance with the instructor I follow very well... now! He uses me to demonstrate all the things he did not teach us that we should be able to do with a good lead. I own the floor when he does that!

Hopefully, I can apply this to many other aspects of my life. Maybe one in particular.

Happy Birthday to Me!!

This year for my birthday I got to celebrate along with two great friends. Happy Birthday Fabio and Madi!!! We had an adventurous birthday. We went snow shoeing. This was my first time. It was a lot of fun.

This was the first time I had sees snow piled so high. Crazy!

I decided to teach my dear friend Madi a lesson on accepting help from men. She insisted on climbing the mound on her own, ignoring Fabio's extended hand. So I set off up the hill and took his hand. Unfortunately, my glove slipped right off my hand and I slid right down the hill. Of course someone caught it on camera...Thanks Rebecca!

But don't worry I was not the only one who found themselves down in the snow!On my Birthday I had to work!! After work I joined a gym. (I have not gone since I joined...oops) Then I went to dinner with my dear friends Rebecca. We had sushi. I love sushi. After that I went home and was ambushed by three guys yelling as they entered my apartment. I screamed and covered my head. They truly scared me. Then they kidnapped me and blindfolded me and took me out to dinner. Oops Rebecca was not successful at keeping me away from food. Oh well I had dessert and enjoyed the company. I have the greatest friends. Oh on Tuesday I came to work and this is what my desk looked like. A day late but just as much love.
28 I am going to make this year a good one!